So scared don’t know if it should give up

I am still awake at 3.50am and have been so worried since I received the text with a telephone appointment on 3rd November.

My doctor has supported by claim on Mental Health grounds and pain/mobility issues.

After trying to take my own life in September 2019 I finally got help in March of this year, due to Covid-19 all my appointments have been on the telephone, I have not been improving in any way, and pray that I will die by natural causes every day. I physically shake and am unable to sleep until it’s daylight, my depression and anxiety are at levels I never knew were possible.

My mobility has been going down hill for months, I now can hardly stand at the sink to wash up a couple of cups before the pain becomes so bad in my legs I just end up sat on the kitchen floor. I haven’t left the house in months. I try and keep as clean as I can but to have a shower takes a couple of hours, getting out of shower sitting on otterman and the pain is just so bad.

Mental Health is organising a social worker to see if they can help and I am listed for an MRI recommend by my physiotherapist, my appointments with him have been on video calls, I cancel so many appointments because of nerves.

Sorry to have written so much, but I read the % that can get PIP and so to stop even more stress should I just give up and cancel rather than have the extra problems till November 3rd.

I just don’t know what to do, my life of over, I have just promised my sister who lives in America I would not try to take my own life again.

Any advice would be so helpful.

My doctor is so slow, not even been offered a flu jab this year and normally as diabetic am offered one.

Been thinking all weekend, if I cancel I have failed again, I will answer the telephone appointment, hopefully I will get through it. Not much sleep in the next week.

Hi Graham
It is such a shame that the government makes people like us jump through hoops, getting stressed out, sleepless nights and anxiety issues just for a few quid.

I did take hours to complete the original claim form, I went through your members help filer page by page as I filled in the form, I also added 8 A4 pages with extra information.

I am claming because of Mental Health and also unable to stand or walk very far, are they judged seperatly or are the points added together?

Thank you again.