Reassessment ESA50 / mental / personality disorder

Ive loads on my plate but nothing compared to some folks who no doubt get refused PIP.. i just need some sensible advice on anything that pops into your mind reading my post.... i am trying to fill it out best as possible but i ruined it once and have reprinted it.. now it needs a jiffy bag to be returned in.. life is draining from me yo know how it is.. ive about 25 days to return it.. i know they will have to call me they cat just stop my money if it isnt there in x time...

My advisor has told me to apply for PIP so i guess i should be on PIP ! ?.. but before getting to that Ive just got this esa50 now which I ruined last time in 13 by not being able to focus and fill out the mental health stuff -- I was on IB for years... i was only just coming to terms with mental health.. i used to deny it like anyone else does ! and got booted off by atos.. then won my appeal and got placed in wrag even though im trying to sort out a number of issues all at once.. then my dad got cancer and was on palliative care for the year at home.. still i had wrag.. then he died... then doing wrag I got my new mountain bike stolen from the employment academy !! and i need it cause of mobility issues which are mainly mental phobia about walking streets ! also always paro about losing my damn bike ! my walking looks a little odd and gets worse over distance.. weakened legs from not walking for years.. but you wouldnt know first meeting me or walking around indoors !!! so it gets really awkward explaining to assessors who just see me as fine walking ....yet nobody i know ever walks anywhere with me because i dont go out to walk.. i refuse to walk far on streets like its a phobia.. i get low back pain walking.. sciatica... from I guess the anxiety... had this since a trauma in my teens when i got beaten up with a hammer he did hit my back and shoulders....... tried getting legs looked at in 2001 it all went wrong and nobody analysed my actual walking and trunk movements... my hips are stiff and im underweight the rheumatolgy guy told me everyone knows im underweight... anyway I found all embaressing and playing on my personality disorder which is also based on appearrances im so underweight since childhood its cracking me up.... i dont eat enough... all this stuff on my mind plus i read too much anyway and know too much ... and the DWP only help you stay ill by repeating stuff all the time.. ive just been diagnosed with personality disorder with psychotic like symptoms when stressed.. and that pressure to find work i MAY HANDLE but may only lead to making me worse eventually.. and that i should be placed n support group.. says my psychiatrist letter in similar words.. which i asked him to write for the DWP ...but its only short he dont know me properly he just rushed me through the service... discharged now I need to go back and focus on specifics.. I also have chronic neurodermatitis which is stress and anxiety related.. depressed aswell my sleep cycle totally reversed and i need go discuss anxiety meds with dr.. over all im hanging on a thread man but ive got my damn witts and computer skills left just about.. sick of it all though.. writing.. words.. its hurting I just like quiet

So Ive been writing a few page statement with too much detail rather than not enough.. for a mandatory swap to support group explaining how my situation digressed since the first [wrong] tribunal decision. .. the DWP asked me to do it because ive been saying 'look im in the wrong group the tribunal was wrong ffs my dad and all that was real bad timing for wrag' ...even if he was ok I still had no time to focus on ME... .. dwp got my 2 psychologist letters and said they will phone me in 2 weeks about the decision.. that was over a month ago.. probably missed the call.. anyway so I should stop here and fill out some of this stuff... not sure if i should call rightfully yours service to help.. they helped me win my tribunal before.. i won with 21 points at tribunal.. zero from atos. If i had added more detail i would have got more points................................... anyway thanks for reading. - sorry its a mess../ all the best people.. - Brian

Hi Brian

Hopefully you''ve read the guide in the members area thoroughly and referred to it as you filled in your form.
The statement sounds like a good idea but try to stay focussed on how your health affects you in carrying out the activities.
Hopefully you also have plenty of supporting evidence from everyone connected to your treatment and care, GP, consultants, therapists, carers, family or anyone else helping you cope.
Make sure you connect their evidence to your replies to the questions on the form.
Best wishes.

Hi Brian, I just wanted to mention that I had assessments for PIP and ESA partly on psychotic illness and for ESA was put in the support group without a medical.

If you look in the guides on here on ESA support group on mental health guides there are some exceptional circumstances relating to e.g. recent psychosis episodes.

Also, if possible, if your mental health trust has the recovery programme that may be useful to you both in terms of support and care and applying for other benefits such as PIP.