ESA

On the 19th Dec 2014 our ESA support was stopped, after a visit to ATOS. There is nowhere open over Xmas and NewYear, to advise you. Then I found out Newham, London has no CAB. We had assistance eventually from Community Links, and went to Tribunal. The Tribunal gave us ESA back, but workforce.My husband has Hep C, geno 1, and arthritis of the spin, hips, knees, neck, mental health issues, depression, addiction. He now walks with walking stick, from hospital, and has put more weight on as he can not get around. He only goes out once a day to out chemist in morning, he knows way, we know a lot of people on route, our doctors is half way there so I do not threat. But because of his memory, I can not let him go anywhere on own.
It has been over 5 weeks since tribunal, and we still have not heard from DWP. So we are on Jobseekers. My claim is with his as we are married but I have my own issues which are getting worse. I have mental health issues, Clinical depression, suffer panic attacks, agrophobia when it gets stressful, have Vascular problems, my circulation is very bad, have arthritis in hands, along with other things. It is my mental health which is my concern at moment, last year the clinic attended closed and all my papers lost. So now have had to start off, going to Drs, attend assesments, more assesments then told no could not help as my symtoms too serious. Eventual have got into secondary Pshycology for couples, after which my name will be put forward, as long waiting list for one to one.
It makes me ill, each morning waking up thinking I have to find so many jobs this week or be sanctioned. I go to Work force, and do what they say, but we already lost money, and I could only do part time, as I have to go to Drug Councilling, Mental Health, appointnments, Tissue viabank, for my vascul exyzma then take my husband to his appointments. Plus I am a career for my elderly neighbour, make breakfast, take her shopping, plus talking therapy to another friend each Friday night.
It seems I do not matter, my problems are not included but it is dual claim. We signed on today and the lady was very indignant because she had to come down four flights of stairs as my husband can not climb that much. He can not get upstairs to bed. She said your on the work programme, make use of it, as afterwards you have to do vouleentry work 30hrs week, even over bank holidays for 13weeks with no pay. I am so scared now, I keep being sick, and feel is it worth living anymore.
Please is there anything I can do.

Thank you for replying to my statements, I am so confused I do not know weather I am coming or going.

Firstly my husband is the main claimant, until Dec 19th we received ESA support allowance. After 19th when informed on the 22nd Dec 14, we had to make new claim on jobseekers, or wait until I honestly do not know. (We were already having problems, with the bedroom tax, just sorted that out, then this came on top, so we were behind in rent, other bills .
We went to tribunal and at end of day, tribunal told us we had our ESA back, but at time we did not know about support/and other. We were just thrilled that it would all come to an end. How silly. As of this date we are still claissified as Jobseekers, and have just received new papers today stating that. So I am so confussed. I have the tribunal paper stating that we should be on ESA. But work force activity. Our work force advisors, have said my husband is incapable of work just watching him sign on, so sent him for his depression to talking therapy. But me who has to wash, dress him in morning, prepare meals, clean, shop (no car) and cope with my day has to look for more jobs, fairs. I hate myself somedays, and only because I have to do for others, do I struggle to stay in this world, plus it helps me deal with my day.
We did not claim ESA Assesment whilst waiting for tribunal, we only had the jobseeker alternative. My husband is 60 this year, I am 57, we have worked, infact both of us worked at different hospitals. Plus when bringing up my son in the end I was working over 50hours a week voulentry, at the Newham Coalition. Closed this last 3yrs. So work we are not scared of,
it is our disabilities, plus as we get older, they do not get better.

At Xmas as I started to write about a month ago, my Husband the main claimant, as we are married 30 yrs or more, had our ESA Support stopped when seeing an ATOS nurse. Being
Xmas we could not get any information, as what to do? and made a claim for Jobseekers. but we did find out that we should appeal.
We took it to the Tribunal, where not understanding enough felt so relieved when they said we would get the ESA back. We managed to get letter from our GP, not very good, but luckly
our Consultant from the Liver Clinic gave a more detailed description. At this time we had many other problems, because the Clinic where both my Husband and myself were treated for Drug Addiction, myself also received my mental health support from them as well, plus our treatment for Hep C. from the BBV nurses and Liver Consultant. I was cured of Hep C, but my husband has geno type 1, which is much harder to rid, had two try with treatment but no luck. The Clinic lost the contract to CRI, which is private all our paperwork misplaced, and we fell through cracks. So at time of ATOS meet we had no back up, and the main reason we lost the support was because we were not in specialized treatment. ATOS said, that all changed again, when we eventually sorted help out from the consultant, and they said my husband could walk more 200yds. we got 0 points. At tribunal that overturned to 15points. But did not understand about ESA work force/support group till now. I am my husbands carer, plus at time for my two elderly neighbours, but I could manage that at my own pace and time, as I have problems with my hands, and severe depression, panic attacks . I have dealt with all paper works and everything our married life, but the last five years my depression has deteriated a lot. I had to give up my voulentry work, because everything was getting ontop of me.I can not concentrate, learn new things, do tests anymore, sometimes I can not go out. Please help me understand how we can boost our claim back to support, so I don't have to keep going to work force, I am sick the night before, can not sleep. If it was not for my son I would have taken the easy way out and top myself, that's what I feel like, I cannot explain things, I do not understand this ESA, plus now I have found out, that over the years my husband has claimed for me, no NI has been paid for me.
I"m 57 and will not be getting any pension. I was told by ESA that I have to make a claim, get sick notes. It has taken me over a year to get my Dr's to refer me for mental health treatment, I have a phobea of Dr's also, what do I ask for, do I need to get letter from the phyciatrist that is giving my husband and myself treatment as couple at moment, would they, or do I have to wait until I get one to one treatment. Because there is a long waiting list and I have to go through couple counselling first. I also have a key worker for the drugs, but none of these people know what I should do, or how to go about it. I am sorry Gordon it has taken this long to get back to you, but it takes me so long to process things now. There is so much I need to explain, but I do not know what is important and things. Plus I am scared, sad, desperate, mixed up. If you could please let us know what to do next. Thank you for your time.