Could someone help me please

Hi All,
Would someone care to give me a bit of advice as I'm nearly at my wits end.
I was a self-employed small builder/plumber up until Jan 2011 when going into a large DIY store, I went over on my ankle and also landed on my shoulder and from that day I have been in agony ever since, even after 2 operations and I have also been diagnosed with Fibro, Diabetes, Neuropathy in my feet and legs and I suffer from bad depression due to me having to close my company down and I had to file for bankruptcy and have tried to kill myself twice as I just feel a burden to everyone. I used to have a very active social life and was Secretary of a large football club but now I don't even go out apart from my Doctors and my Counsellor every week and even then I always have to have someone with me. I was awarded DLA middle rate care from 2012 to Aug 2014 so I filled the renewal forms in and thought that it would be a formality but I waited until March 2015 and then I was awarded Low rate care. So I asked for a reconsideration which failed and I am now going to appeal the decision and to top it all I have just received an ESA50 to fill in and I just don't know what to do, I really feel like ending it all as I think IDS wants us all to do. Could someone please advise if they have had to fill in another one of these forms in or have they made a mistake ( wishful thinking) and its just me

I don't know whether you have a local DIAL office, but they can offer real support with filling in the ESA forms (and any other similar benefit claim forms) Just phone and explain your circumstances and I'm sure someone will be only too happy to help.