So scared don’t know if it should give up

Dear Graham, just to let you know I'm another of many who have not forgotten about you. And I back everything Dan has said above -yes your call but you really do have a good case. His idea of using some money to buy help with an appeal makes good sense to me. Very best wishes Denby

Thank you so much everyone.

I keep reading the points thing and I keep thinking if I write the honest truth I believe I should be able to get the extra points. I can write ok, I have a friend who works in Brighton as a career and said he would go over what I write.

Preparing Food, Washing and Bathing, Managing Toilet Needs and Dressing and Undressing all got 2 points each.

Over two hours to have a shower, having to sit on the floor of the shower because I can’t stand long enough, then after sitting on an ottoman and dry over a period of time. On the report it says every two days, are they joking I wish, couple of times a month and I am disgusted with myself.

Preparing Food, they can check my coop orders from June to now, they will see what I live on, I have ordered more shakes as it’s just easier, standing to butter bread of toast I am leaning on one arm for balance, leg giving way.

Toilet needs, I know this was the most embarrassing. the times I don’t make it upstairs is awful,

Getting dressed is hard, most days don’t bother with socks and so many days I either just sleep on the chair cause I can’t face going upstairs, or go to bed time I get upstairs go to bed with my clothes on.

If I wrote all the and just got 1 more point from each I would have 12.

Mobility, going to the kitchen and having to hold on to stairs, radiator, kitchen surfaces to get a few metres, not 20 certainly not 50. I said when I have to go to the doctors, I lay awake thinking shall I cancel, I often do to stop the panic. I go out of the door, I always drink before going out, when I went to have my MRI last week I went to get in cab couldn’t, he could see I was upset so I came back inside tried to calm down get my breath had a couple of drinks and then went again. It’s even worse now cause I panic and sweat now with Covid I worry they think with me sweating.

I am happy to write that all in detail, and get my friend to check it and send it as the mandatory consideration. Do you think I should give it a try, I don’t think I want to read the report as I think I am more likely to get upset and not bother at all.

I am going to use some of the money to get my house cleaned a bit, just need to get someone to recommend so I can hide away while they are here.

If I do send this in do I just send it in a letter with my National Insurance Number? Typing this and already the panic of posting the letter and not even done it. I normally pay for a courier to come to collect to save me going out but not sure if I could do it with this, although could courier to friend and then they could post.

Sorry, for going on just think if I do this get it in the post, then I won’t have that going round and round in my head.

I have received a letter with a simple form just to check I have not got a carer, says I am entitled to Severe Disability Premium, can anyone help with what this means?

Thank you

I have returned the Mandatory Reconsideration and The severe disability form the ESA people contacted me about so now just wait.