ESA-too distressed to attend assessment

Things have got worse. I sent everything off including a letter from my dad explaining how bad I was. I then received a rescheduled appt for 20th March, followed by a letter saying they had refused either a home visit or a taxi (I had asked for neither, the doctor stated I needed a paper based assessment) due to insufficient medical evidence. (this included my last atos report that said I had significant ongoing mental health problems and should be in an exempt category) and that if I do not attend my benefits would be stopped. I literally psychologically cannot deal with a face to face assessment either at a center (miles away in a really rough area and what about corona!!) or at home. I have written another letter to my mp. What else can I do? I have come out in shingles and self harmed because of this further letter. I'm going to the doctors again to ask for another letter, my regular doctors letters are brief to say the least but I see another one to do with my sleep problems and will ask him.

thanks so much. I should be able to get the letter from my gp. I'm hoping my MP will help too. Whenever anyone has phoned on my behalf they have insisted on speaking to me and will not go through a 3rd party. The only positive thing is that I'm not sure the shingles has come back, a lump has formed where I had shingles last month, but whatever it is it's stress related!! Ugh, wish I could win the lottery but no chance of that as I don't do it. Thanks for all your help and support.

Seeing doctor in the morning. Can't even go through with a home visit. They're too judgemental. I look like there's nothing wrong and that's all that matters to them, they don't know or care how I feel inside.
when I had the pip assesment (which I self harmed before and after) I have sciatica but they took away my mobility allowance just because I walked to the toilet (she came out after me and observed me) I know I couldn't face a tribunal so didn't ask for a mandatory reconsideration. That's one reason I'm so distressed by the thought of having to attend another dwp assessment, that one stressed me out so badly and I was so bad mentally before and after.